Changed

Back in October I went to a 3 day woman’s conference my home church hosts every year. This year was my first time watching it in person and words can’t even describe how incredible it was!! God’s presence was soooo evident, God was working in that place, and I left COMPLETELY new!!! I am so excited to see what God does next!

I left feeling new and I want to kind of explain what I mean by that.

1st: I used to fear being myself because I thought others would judge me or even just give me looks. But now, I am fearless! I have been my complete self ever since the last day of DFL. I have of course still been facing some lies and attacks from Satan about this specific topic, and my response toward that is “I rebuke you Satan in Jesus’ Name!!” Because the enemy has NO authority over our lives and the way we view ourselves. God designed us in HIS image, and we are so loved by Him! Who cares what others “may” think, I only care about how God views me!

2nd: I have had such a fire for God, and I am just so excited to spread the Gospel. Honestly, as much as it is hard to explain, I have been so encouraged, filled with so much love, and God’s presence and light has just been flowing through me everywhere I go.

Making Jesus my number one priority has changed me and my perspective in so many ways! Inside and out.
I have made sure I read at least 1 chapter of my bible in any book each day no matter how I feel or even how tired I may feel.

God is so good!!

You can live changed as well! Take a moment today to look at your priorities. Is God still number 1 on your list? Or are you going to your phone, work, friends, and family for something that won’t bring you eternal satisfaction?

Join me today in reading a chapter of any book daily! For me, it has been Matthew and sometimes I even read a chapter of Matthew and 2 Samuel.
If you would like to see some more posts on my daily reading, maybe I could start posting daily about what I read that day and what I got from it. If anything, because let’s me honest. We don’t ALWAYS get something from a verse in that moment.

Praying for you all! Have a wonderful day.

We Are Not Perfect!

So, I was wanting to write something more upbeat and happy. But, as of today I have honestly just been really down in depression. I don’t want to talk, work, or really do anything. Not even the things I felt so excited to do earlier when I was out and about. 

Life happens, I am not a perfect human, this world is just broken. But I have God and so do you who are reading this. I was going to post a video on how I am feeling However, I just can’t get myself to record it so I wanted to write it. Besides, writing is my strong suit. I hope this encourages someone out there!

Back in January, literally right when midnight hit I knew this year was going to be different, but I didn’t know how hard “different” would be. I just turned 18 last month and already it has brought even more change to my life. I would be lying if I said it was easy, because in all honesty, it is so far from “EASY”

So as I was saying, when January started I began to experience some depression which turned into the worst depression I have ever experienced, I mean, that was the first time I ever experienced it…. But, it was horrible, and it didn’t stop there. It lasted for 2 whole weeks, which if any of you follow my YouTube channel “Flowering Faith” you may have seen a video I posted about how I was feeling, that day was hard! God however told me to share, so I obeyed. It’s called:
“It’s Been A Struggle”

When the depression finally went away thanks to our amazing God, it came back off and on in the following months, and to be honest it has never fully left. 

I have been growing closer to the Lord in this hard season of a year, yet I always find it so hard to open my bible and take in the truth as the lies and depression come upon me. 

I bet you sometimes get that to, I know I am not alone, and yet sometimes I feel as though I am.

Since May I have been dealing with constant non stop health problems and on top of all that, anxiety, depression, and life! It has been so overwhelming and just weighing down on me.

I wanted to share all this with you because I want you to know that you are not alone! You have people around you, family, friends, church! But not only that, you have God! He has never and will never leave you. No matter how difficult your situation is, or how long you have been in a hard season. God sees you! He is providing for you, and He is using your situation for His glory, He has a purpose. Trust Him!

I don’t know who you are, but God does and He is with you through it all!

Hope you all are doing well, praying for you! 

God sees you friends
You are NOT alone

The Lord is Your Strength

The other day as I was listening to some calming worship music on youtube and while journaling there came a verse on the screen:                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        

        -Psalm 18:1-

      “I love you, O Lord, my strength”

I instantly grabbed my Bible and opened it to that verse to continue reading the rest of the chapter. Little did I know that (Psalm 18) was exactly what I needed today! God really spoke to me through each verse I read. God is truly so great! Verse 1 reminds me that my strength comes from the Lord. I shouldn’t try to rely on my own strength because my flesh is weak, whereas my God is strong, mighty, and is wanting to fight my battles for me. He has the victory!

-Psalm 18:2-

“The Lord is my Rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my Rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.”

Not only is the Lord my strength, He is my safe place- where I take refuge. He is my shield, so in other words, when lies come my way, when the enemy’s attacks strike me, He will protect me and guard me. But only if I am prepared. My church is currently in a series called “The Fight Against Evil”, and my youth pastor has talked a lot about how before we are attacked we need to be prepared! Prayer and our Bible are the most powerful weapons, but only if you know how to use them.

(Ephesians 6:10-19) talks a lot more about this, and I encourage you to study and take a closer look at the verses! It is important to know how to use the armor of God. Honestly, I didn’t understand how we were supposed to put the full armor of God on, until one of the sermons at my church was explained this way:

“Before you leave your house, or step out of your bed to start your day, go to God in prayer, and ask Him to guard your heart, mind, and body from what may come
your way.”

We Need Rest!

The other night I was laying on my bed just scrolling through Instagram. Sometime later I decided to turn it off and put my phone down. Immediately after deciding to do this, the Holy Spirit laid this verse on my heart:

Matthew 11:28 NIV.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

I’ll be honest with you, I sat there on my bed questioning why I needed that verse and why it even came to mind. I hadn’t read it on Instagram nor had I found it anywhere else. But, then as I was thinking about the verse I started to realize that I had been struggling to go to God with my burdens so He can give me the rest I truly need daily. Rest that this world cannot give to me. Instead, I was dwelling in my emotions and just trying to do it all on my own. I thought I would be able to get through it alone.

I always come to think I can do life alone, but you and I both know that is so far from the truth!! We can’t do anything on our own! And that is why we have Jesus, He takes everything we are going through on His shoulders and carry’s us through it all. However, that is ONLY if we allow Him to have it all.

Are you allowing God to have your trials? Are you trusting Him in this season of difficulty you may be facing? Have you surrendered your life to Him?

I have asked myself these questions time and time again so that I can reposition myself to Christ if I have gone off the path He has for me. Trust me, it can be so hard in the moment! But God WILL get you through this!

I am praying for you all! I hope each of you reading this have had a great week!

Am I Enough?

Have you ever struggled with feeling like you are not enough to your loved one, family, friends, or even your calling God has for you?

Well, I sure have and I am here to tell you this:
You are right, you are NOT enough!

Bet you weren’t expecting or even looking for that reply/answer. To be honest, I wasn’t either (at first). Until I realized that that those words are true!
You know why? Well, it’s simple, Jesus IS enough for me so I won’t be enough for someone else and they won’t be enough for me. Jesus is ALL I need in this world.
However, that does not mean you don’t need people in your life! You absolutely still need people, friends, family, and even your girlfriend/wife or boyfriend/husband to point you toward God and be there by your side through the highs and lows you face in life.
Not only do you need people there for you, they need you to be there for them as well. God put people in your life for a reason.

But always remember this:
Jesus is enough, so you don’t have to be

Words…

Words, they can be so hard to come by to be completely honest. For the past several months I have been longing to write something and post it on here. I absolutely love to write! However, when I open my google doc and get ready to write, I find myself staring at a blank, overwhelming page.

I have asked God over and over again, “What is it you are wanting me to write about?” But then I get lost in my own head. I have also been going through a hard season. This season of life has included a ton of lies from Satan and some health issues with myself.

Something I have learned through this time and time again is that I need to trust God, trust Him with every single thing, even the tiniest of details. He knew from the start that I would be facing this season, and He has made a way out of it.

Anxiety, tics, health, attacks, lies, fear, doctors visits, the unknown. It all seems so hard, and as if I am being attacked from every side. But the Lord has never and will never leave!

God has been here with me every step of the way, and I know, whatever you may be facing today God SEES you, and is ready for you to come to Him, His arms are open wide! He loves you, cares about you, and He has a way out of the struggles.

PRAYING for all of you reading this and I hope you have a blessed day!

.Jesus Knows The Struggle.

I have been struggling with my emotions, anxiety, and stress a lot lately that it has been really hard for me to get on here and create, even making YouTube videos has been difficult, and that is all because of the devils attacks on my life.

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However, tonight I was reading through a couple of bible plans I am going through on the bible app called “Emotions” and “Foundations of Faith.” And I honestly learned a lot from both! The 2nd one taught me how God is love! and how He is involved in Creation and how he cares so much for Humanity. God is our Creator and He does not regret that!

The ‘Emotions’ Bible plan taught me something different though, and it honestly relates to more of what I have struggled with recently. First off it tells me how my feelings and faith in God are not at war with each other, feelings can actually fuel our Faith! This is something that I have struggled a lot to believe the past years yet it is so true! it just depends on how we choose to respond to our feelings and that is when Jesus comes into all of this. He was there at the beginning and will never leave.

Jesus came into this world as one of us. Fully man, fully God. There was one difference though, He knew NO sin! Yet He freed us from our sins to save us when He sacrificed Himself on the cross.

Since Jesus came into this world human that means He knew and lived every emotion we face in our day-to-day lives (Sadness, anger, frustration, etc.) Yet He didn’t respond to His emotions the same way most of us do. We may find ourselves trying to hide, forget, or even distract ourselves from the emotions that seem to overtake us daily. Yet Jesus responded with prayer, when He felt anger, sadness, or frustration rise in Him he would go to God and say “Let your will be done” even in the pain He went straight to God and gave Him His trust. He made sure that through His emotions He connected closely with His Father.

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In Matthew 26:37-39 we see Jesus become distressed and in anguish about His coming crucifixion. and yet, in the middle of all this He went to His father in prayer and once again said “Let your with be done”

-Matthew 26:37-39-
"He took Peter and Zebedee's two sons, James and John, and He became in anguished and distressed. He told them, "My soul is crushed with grief to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me." He went on a little farther and bowed with His face to the ground, praying.
"My Father! If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine."

Jesus NEVER ignored His own pain, He acknowledged it in the moment, and He does not ignore our pain, in fact when we are hurting, God promises to always be with us, no matter what!

Our feelings can fuel our faith, but only when they send us running to the Father

In the verses below Jesus is telling His disciples whats going to happen to Him:

John 16:20 (ESV)
"Truly, truly, I say to you, you will weep, and lament, but the world will rejoice. You will be sorrowful, but the sorrow will turn into joy."

John 16:20 (NLT)
"I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn over what is going to happen to me, but the world will rejoice. You will grieve, but the grief will suddenly turn to wonderful joy."

Jesus knew the purpose of His pain, yet He didn’t diminish the disciples’ grief in the process. Jesus acknowledged that they would weep, mourn, and be sad about what all was coming. He didn’t tell them to “get over it” or “ignore it.”
He actually told them that the grief would turn into JOY!

Feelings are a reminder that you need to go to the Father

So, as an encouragement today. Spend some time with God in both the happy, and the hurting moment. You will not regret it, trust me!
and ask God to reveal to you how it is He is wanting you to deal with your current emotions, I may not know what you are facing right now but the Lord knows and He is with you right now and forever.

Praying for you all, and I hope you have a blessed day/night. Talk to you next time!

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A Mask…

 -John 15:18-21-
"If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you.
If you were of the world, the world would love you as it's own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. Remember the word that I said to you: 'A servant is not greater than his master.' If they persecuted me, they will persecute you. If they kept my word, they will also keep yours. But all these things they will do to you on account of my name, because they do not know Him who sent me.
"

Sometimes, I find myself hiding parts of who I am, parts of my personality. Why? Because I am scared. I am scared of what others may think of that side of me. Will they still like me if I am very talkative, or that I am actually a really silly girl who can be kind of weird and random at times in a good way? 

   You know what I have learned through all this, and all these thoughts? Is that everyone I am true friends with actually loves who I am. Those fears I had aren’t true at all! God tells us 365 times in the bible not to be afraid. So don’t be! When you are your complete quirky self on the outside, your true friends will love you just the way you are, and if you come across people who can’t see you the way God does, then who cares? All you need is God, and those God puts in your life who see you for you.

  So why are you putting on a mask? Who are you hiding from? Are you afraid to show others who God intentionally designed you to be? Are you hiding yourself because you’re afraid of judgment? I know I used to hide myself because I was afraid others would judge me for being, well, me, and for having tourettes. In all honesty, I also feared what people would do if they knew I was Christian. Now that I am older though, I have learned that it doesn’t matter what others do to me, all that matters is that I am following God, and doing as He tells me to do.
  Don’t be ashamed of the Gospel, show it off to the world! Share it with everyone who will listen. Plant some seeds. If people want to persecute you for following God then who cares? They don’t know Him like you do. Are people bullying you for sharing who God is? or for even just believing with all you have that He is real, then let them, God is greater and is protecting you. You just have to let Him in on the situation, and really have faith in God’s goodness.

  
  This is a subject I know a ton about. For 8 years I hid myself away, I was this shy little girl who just hid in a corner, not talking to anyone, and barely even talking to my girlfriends. Why? Because I was scared. It’s normal to be scared of judgment, to fear what others will think, but don’t let those thoughts control you and your actions like I did back then. Last year I actually got out of it all, and it didn’t just switch off like a light switch, it took months of prayer. Remember, Prayer is a powerful thing!

  WE NEED GOD! No matter what we are facing, good or bad, we need God through it all. Go to God in prayer, tell Him your fears and really surrender it all to Him. He loves you, and is ready to help you in any situation, you just have to let Him. So what are you waiting for? 

  Praying for you all, and I hope this has really helped you. See you in the next post!